Today, I continue my story of loneliness. I do not know what does it take to get people you like to be with, together. But now I have stopped even trying to figure that out. I have a very good friend, at least I thought the relationship was serious. But then I realize that I started expecting things from her. Why does she have to accompany me? It is not a compulsion. I am trying really hard not to expect anything from her, or from anyone else. I have come to realize after all this while that the worst thing in your life could be LIFE WITHOUT FRIENDS. This has not happened for the first time. I want to say I am angry but then I realize that I am not angry. I am just sad and disappointed in seeing myself as such a big loser. A loser does not have any place in anyone's heart. Right now, I am ashamed to say that I hold the title of LOSER.
The solitary confinement given to me by everyone I know has let me down. I have been pushed by the FAKE LOVED ONES to a corner from where I can not see any way out. So the question is How will I fight my way out? The answer would be that I am too fed up from fighting my way out. I care for my so called stupid FRIENDS and I will care for them till the point I know them. But how long can this one way caring can carry, I do not know.
There is no point wishing for anything, else I could have asked for people who care about me. I must say God would find this wish of mine pretty hard to fulfill. So, I stand by my statement I made years ago...
I CAN NOT BE LOVED
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